I Didn’t Light A Candle, A Poem For My Unborn Baby…
I wrote this some time ago and while it isn’t October, there is always a time to honor and remember. I didn’t light a candle I let the memory live inside It is not that I forgot Because I couldn’t if I tried Time has passed But the pain is still real No matter how much I try I imagine you still Your tiny hands Tiny feet The bundle of joy I never had a chance to meet I know one day We will walk together I will hold you and love you And it will be forever I didn’t light a candle…. I have had so many close to…
I Don’t See You
To the mom that ______, I don’t See you So many posts these days that have “I See You” and this may make me a bit unpopular but, I don’t See you. I don’t See the struggles you face with depression or anxiety every day because of your situation. I don’t See the difficulties of having a child with special needs. I don’t See the woman that has spent countless hours injecting herself with what she is praying to be her miracle to conceive. I don’t See the mama that is with the love of her life in the NICU, praying that she will get…
The Day The Devil Knocked & The Door Was Answered
Our greatest fear is that our children will lose the battle with their addiction. For some families, this fear has become their new reality. June 26th, 2017 is the day that shook our world. We received word my husbands eldest nephew, Jake, lost his fight with his demons. After achieving a period of abstinence, the devil knocked on the door, he answered and his body failed him. The shock that took me is indescribable. It had been less than a week since we talked and he told me how great he was doing and I expressed how proud of him I was. For a moment I believed there was hope! He…
Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness Day 10/15
Mark your calendar and please join me in remembrance.
A Time to Celebrate, A Time to Mourn
Today marks two years since we lost our first, my husband’s birthday and our rainbow baby’s eight months old. While I was hesitant to write anything about it I realized I am allowed to celebrate and allowed to be upset still. While I am incredibly blessed to have such an amazing little boy, I know in heaven we have a son or a daughter that wasn’t ready to leave. I will always wonder and I know that one day we will meet. While so many women have experienced loss we are still hesitant to talk about it. Some see it as taboo others have not been in those shoes and…
My Rainbow Baby
As I write about my rainbow baby, it will be the most difficult post I will ever write. I pray it touches you in some way and encourages healing if you have been through this. Rainbow Baby definition A rainbow baby is a baby born shortly after the loss of a previous baby due to miscarriage, stillbirth, or death in infancy. This term is given to these special rainbow babies because a rainbow typically follows a storm, giving us hope of what’s to come. First I would like to say I am so sorry for your loss. I know you are probably sick of hearing this by now but…
