Today marks two years since we lost our first, my husband’s birthday and our rainbow baby’s eight months old. While I was hesitant to write anything about it I realized I am allowed to celebrate and allowed to be upset still. While I am incredibly blessed to have such an amazing little boy, I know in heaven we have a son or a daughter that wasn’t ready to leave. I will always wonder and I know that one day we will meet. While so many women have experienced loss we are still hesitant to talk about it. Some see it as taboo others have not been in those shoes and…