The Day The Devil Knocked & The Door Was Answered

    Our greatest fear is that our children will lose the battle with their addiction. For some families, this fear has become their new reality. June 26th, 2017 is the day that shook our world. We received word my husbands eldest nephew, Jake, lost his fight with his demons. After achieving a period of abstinence, the devil knocked on the door, he answered and his body failed him. The shock that took me is indescribable. It had been less than a week since we talked and he told me how great he was doing and I expressed how proud of him I was. For a moment I believed there was hope! He…


    A Time to Celebrate, A Time to Mourn

    Today marks two years since we lost our first, my husband’s birthday and our rainbow baby’s eight months old. While I was hesitant to write anything about it I realized I am allowed to celebrate and allowed to be upset still. While I am incredibly blessed to have such an amazing little boy, I know in heaven we have a son or a daughter that wasn’t ready to leave. I will always wonder and I know that one day we will meet. While so many women have experienced loss we are still hesitant to talk about it. Some see it as taboo others have not been in those shoes and…